Saturday, January 20, 2018

Throwback January

A throwback to Januarys earlier in my life :D

January 2008. 
10 years ago I was a dollmum. :P Well I still am, but I'm not that into the hobby anymore. I sometimes miss it and wish I would be excited about it again. 

January 2009.
I was very confused at that time.I wanted change. Life seemed so boring I remember. That whole year turned out a mess just because I was so unhappy and bored.

January 2010
That year started out great, I got in on a education in graphic design that I liked, Mattias and I had found each other for real again. :)

January 2011
I was loving my green hair, baking a lot, working hard in school and looking for intership.


January 2012
And nooow I was in pastry school haha! Had so much fun, loved every minute of every day! 

January 2013
Unemployed, sad, worrying that we might not afford getting married in Decemberas planned. I was hanging a lot with my friend Andrea who also took this picture.

January 2014
I was working in a kitchen, just married and feeling happier because I had a job to go to.

January 2015
I was in a lot of pain almost every day, I had trouble with my new pills. It would be a rough few months I had ahead of me. 

January 2016
I was doing so well with my workouts, feeling great! Exciting things going on. 

January 2017
Tired after a very hectic 2016. But also happy and with very high hopes for the year. :D 

As of todayJanuary 2018
Very tired and need to go to bed. 

Thursday, December 28, 2017


Even though I'm very bad at updating here I feel like I should do a year review :)

Like always a year is both good and bad. One of the highlights was visiting my older sister and her family in Finland. It was wonderful even though I have felt more sad after it because they live so far away, I feel like we are missing out on each others lifes.
Besides Finland I made a new really good friend this year though, that makes me happy. It's not easy finding new friends as a grown-up but my younger sister sort of arranged it. My younger sister is always a good part of a year, I don't know how I would make it without her.
Our new family member, my husbands sisters child (puh) also makes me so happy! :D He is now 1 year old and I wish I could see him everyday haha!

Overall I have had a sad year. Very much anxiety. One would think everything would feel better now that I'm finally economically stable for the first time in adult life, and also have a job I really like. But anxiety doesn't work that way.
Earlier this year I started to talk to a psychologist, she was the best. I learned a lot, she made me look at my childhood a way that I have never been before and it really helped. Then she moved away in august and since then I haven't got a new one even though I should.
This year one of my favourite artists passed away. Chester Bennington in Linkin Park. He killed himself and it affected me so much. I was devastated for a week. I'm still very sad that he is gone. But I don't want it to go that far for me. And I wont let it.
2018 I need to find things that makes me feel better.

My husband and I celebrated 13 years together this December, and 4 years as married. :D I'm so glad to have him in my life. He is like a lifeboat that keeps my safe and never let's me drift away. <3 

This is the stuff I wanted to accomplish the year of 2017:
-  Visit London ( )  I visited my sister in Finland instead which I'm very happy about it! Maybe there will be a trip to London in 2018 but it's not something I will plan now.
-  Visit a spa ( ) I almost made it this year! I have giftcard, haha!
-  Go bowling more! (/) I guess I did it more than I ususally do. But not as much as I wanted!
- Talk less to my mom. (x) I nailed this. I haven't talked to her since 23 december 2016 and that has been so good for me. Nowadays there is noone telling me that I'm a stupid and worthless person.

Hair of 2017

This is the stuff I want to accomplish the year of 2018:

- Try to do more yoga. I'm falling behind in my workouts because I'm so tired which affects my endometrios badly. Maybe instead of a rough workout I could try to to yoga the days I feel weary ( )
- Use that spagiftcard! ( )
- Be with family more. Sometimes when Mattias visits his family I'm to scared to go with. I'm scared that they will ask questions about my anxiety when I can't pretend to be happy. But I like going there. So I should remember that ( )
- Most important, use the money I now have on more fun stuff I really enjoy, visit the movies, go on a cruise, maybe go to Finland again.  ( )

Best book this year: On the Island - Tracey Garvis Grace
Best movie this year: Jumanji, welcome to the jungle

Wednesday, October 18, 2017

3 outfits

This entry will be 3 outfits I have been wearing recently :) 

My newest dress :) From Riotlab. I fell in love with the cats of course and I really like the skaterstyle dresses. 

This dress I bought last halloween from HM. I haven't been wearing so much before, it used to have long sleeves. Since I cut them off I have been wearing it a lot :D 

I bought this dress with my birthdaygiftcard from EMP :D It's one of my most precious clothings, haha. 
The print is so so pretty!

Sunday, October 1, 2017

Hello halloween

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 These two fellas are my newest addition to our home :D I couldn't resist them! 
I expecially love the bat.

Tuesday, September 19, 2017

Things that makes me happy

I founds this entry in my drafts but I hadn't finished it yet. Seemed like a good idea to finish it. I think it's healthy to find joy in the little things in life as well. :)

Things that makes me happy

- When one of the cats falls asleep in my lap and after a while does this happy jawn and start to purr.

- Waking up at 9 a day free from work with nothing planned but reading and watching movies the whole day.

-  After a workout, having also just cleaned the apartment, sitting down with a huge glass of coca-cola, with ice and a straw in!

- Going to the cinema, order the largest popcorn and watching a movie you just know will be soooo gooood.

- Waking up in the niddle of the night just to move closer to my husband and fall asleep again.

- A freshly made bed and a whole hour of reading before it's time to sleep.

- The first day in december.When christmas is everywhere. Hopefully a little snow as well.

Feel free to do your own list :D In the comments or in your blog!

Sunday, September 17, 2017

Birthday gifts

Hello :D
I just wanted to show my amazing gifts I have been getting for my birthday. 
It was 5th september but because people are so busy I have been celebrated a little here and there after that. 

Look at these plates! Actually I'm scared to put something on them. I think I just will use them as decorations. 

Mushu and Cricket <3 
And of course I can't WAIT to do this puzzle I got from my sister. Oh my! It's larp in a few days but after that I will jump on this. So excited! 

I bought this fox as a gift for myself, what should I name it?

Other things I got was a new computer monitor and a huge giftcard for my favourite clothingstore emp-shop. I already ordered some dresses but they haven't arrived yet. Stay tuned ;) 

Here are some recent outfits :) 

Saturday, September 9, 2017

Finally some outfits!

Yes, it's true! I have actually managed to take enough outfitphotos to make a whole entry about it! *applauses myself*

I have had a very long period of anxiety when it comes to clothes, so it isn't until recently I have felt the joy in dressing up again, which makes it more fun to take outfitpictures as well :D

A few days ago I looked through my old blog I had between 2010-2012 
And it was so much fun too see all the my outfits and what I liked back then! 
So I will definitly try to take more outfitpictures now so in a few years again I can look back and look at these :)